I've decided that it is time to lose all this weight that I have gained. Not only do I still own all the pregnancy weight that I gained, but I also now own 10 pounds of what I like to call "lazy weight".
Bascially, I've done pretty much as little physical activity as I can and have been eating junk and crap and more junk as much as I possibly can.
I have joined myfitnesspal to track what I am eating and how much excercise I am getting.
My goal is to be back to my pre-baby weight by the time my darling princess turns 1. Hopefully I can stick with it this time!
Monday, July 4, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I Am an Awful Blogger
So you would think that because I am on Blogger every day reading other people's blogs, that I would remember to update my own.
Obviously not.
So, I think I am going to try and update this thing at least once a week. I think trying to update it every day was just too much because there wasn't enough going on for me to do that.
So, let's go with this once a week thing and see what happens!
Obviously not.
So, I think I am going to try and update this thing at least once a week. I think trying to update it every day was just too much because there wasn't enough going on for me to do that.
So, let's go with this once a week thing and see what happens!
Friday, March 4, 2011
So I Fell Into A Black Hole...
No, not really. Just been extremely busy (kinda), hence the lack of updates.
Baby Madison was born on February 2 at 8:40PM and was a whopping 5 1/2 pounds! This was after 3 days of me being induced and being extremely exhausted. I actually asked for a C-section at one point. I have no idea how long she was. I didn't know how much she weighed when she was born until the day after. They took her right away to assess her condition. As it turned out, not only were her intestines out, but so was her bladder AND one of her ovaries. They managed to get almost everything back in right away, and the rest of it through surgery the next day. No incision had to be made luckily, everything was put back through her belly button.
She has since spent the last month in the NICU. She finally came home with us yesterday. She was supposed to come home last week, but had started throwing up after eating (which she LOVES to do! [eat, not throw up]) and they had to start her on reflux medications. She is on Regelan and Prevacid and a multivitamin that is fortified with iron. She doesn't mind taking the Regelan and Prevacid, but definitely does not like the vitamin drops. I don't blame her. It smells terrible and is black liquid, I can only imagine how it tastes. Hopefully I can just stick it in a bottle (one of the many disposables that I have at the moment. Yay for free stuff from the hospital!) and give it to her. I think that would be much easier and this way I know that she is getting it the way she needs it since she apparently tends to spit most of it out.
We have a visiting nurse service coming in tomorrow to evaluate her and see how she is doing, and I think I will ask them to come back a couple of times. Just because of the pure fact that her insurance covers it, so therefore I am going to take advantage of all the help I can get.
Baby Madison was born on February 2 at 8:40PM and was a whopping 5 1/2 pounds! This was after 3 days of me being induced and being extremely exhausted. I actually asked for a C-section at one point. I have no idea how long she was. I didn't know how much she weighed when she was born until the day after. They took her right away to assess her condition. As it turned out, not only were her intestines out, but so was her bladder AND one of her ovaries. They managed to get almost everything back in right away, and the rest of it through surgery the next day. No incision had to be made luckily, everything was put back through her belly button.
She has since spent the last month in the NICU. She finally came home with us yesterday. She was supposed to come home last week, but had started throwing up after eating (which she LOVES to do! [eat, not throw up]) and they had to start her on reflux medications. She is on Regelan and Prevacid and a multivitamin that is fortified with iron. She doesn't mind taking the Regelan and Prevacid, but definitely does not like the vitamin drops. I don't blame her. It smells terrible and is black liquid, I can only imagine how it tastes. Hopefully I can just stick it in a bottle (one of the many disposables that I have at the moment. Yay for free stuff from the hospital!) and give it to her. I think that would be much easier and this way I know that she is getting it the way she needs it since she apparently tends to spit most of it out.
We have a visiting nurse service coming in tomorrow to evaluate her and see how she is doing, and I think I will ask them to come back a couple of times. Just because of the pure fact that her insurance covers it, so therefore I am going to take advantage of all the help I can get.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Pregnancy Woes
Only 9 more days until the big day. And I'm definitely ready for her to be out!
I know a lot of women would say, you shouldn't want your pregnancy to be over so soon, you're going to miss being pregnant, etc...
This may be true, somewhere down the line. But honestly, I haven't enjoyed pregnancy at all really. I thought I would love being pregnant, but in all honesty, I really, really, really dislike it. Maybe it's because I had such a rough first trimester being constantly (and by constantly I mean 24/7, not being able to eat anything) nauseous and sick. Maybe it's because I've spent SO much time at the dr's and I'm just sick of going to the doctors. Maybe it's because I've never wanted to sleep so much in my life as I have in the past 9 months. I can't put my finger on exactly what it is, I just flat out have not thoroughly enjoyed being pregnant.
There have been times where I have loved having her kick and everything after I have been able to feel her move, I will admit that. But as horrible as this sounds, and it's going to make a lot of people cringe probably, I get annoyed with her movement a lot of the time, especially on the days where she is just constantly on the move and really has no where to go because she has no more room in there.
And even though I'm completely exhausted and feel like I sleep more than I do anything else, I'm finding that I really don't sleep that much. Well, at night anyway. Up every hour on the hour, especially if I have a nap during the day. Kind of a sticky situation because I can't make it through most days (like today) without taking a nap. So it's either I'm exhausted and ready for bed by 5PM, so I struggle to stay awake until the fiance has to go to work or I take a nap and don't sleep at night. It's a lose lose situation. Although, I suppose I should get used it.
I know a lot of women would say, you shouldn't want your pregnancy to be over so soon, you're going to miss being pregnant, etc...
This may be true, somewhere down the line. But honestly, I haven't enjoyed pregnancy at all really. I thought I would love being pregnant, but in all honesty, I really, really, really dislike it. Maybe it's because I had such a rough first trimester being constantly (and by constantly I mean 24/7, not being able to eat anything) nauseous and sick. Maybe it's because I've spent SO much time at the dr's and I'm just sick of going to the doctors. Maybe it's because I've never wanted to sleep so much in my life as I have in the past 9 months. I can't put my finger on exactly what it is, I just flat out have not thoroughly enjoyed being pregnant.
There have been times where I have loved having her kick and everything after I have been able to feel her move, I will admit that. But as horrible as this sounds, and it's going to make a lot of people cringe probably, I get annoyed with her movement a lot of the time, especially on the days where she is just constantly on the move and really has no where to go because she has no more room in there.
And even though I'm completely exhausted and feel like I sleep more than I do anything else, I'm finding that I really don't sleep that much. Well, at night anyway. Up every hour on the hour, especially if I have a nap during the day. Kind of a sticky situation because I can't make it through most days (like today) without taking a nap. So it's either I'm exhausted and ready for bed by 5PM, so I struggle to stay awake until the fiance has to go to work or I take a nap and don't sleep at night. It's a lose lose situation. Although, I suppose I should get used it.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Poor Decisions and Rendering the Consequences
Why do we have such a hard time coping with the fact that we make bad decisions?
Why do we have to complain about the situations that we get ourselves into when we conciously make a poor decision?
Why can't we live with the fact that we just made a poor decision and got ourselves into a sticky situation, get out of it as best as we can, and forget about it?
This is something I can't understand. I understand the fact that we are all going to make poor decisions and make mistakes in our lifetimes. However, what I don't fully comprehend are those who constantly make poor decisions, despite advice from others after they ask for it repeatedly, but then constantly complain that they are in a sticky or a foul situation. You made a conscious decision, one that you knew at the time probably was not the right move. Everyone does it. It's part of our nature. There are definitely just times where we have to test our boundaries, our limits, what is right and what is wrong in our own minds. However, we should also be able to render the consequences that come along with the decisions that we make.
So I guess my question is this: why make a conciously bad decision/poor choice when you know ahead of time what the consequence will be?
For example: This is something I have seen happen a lot with girls (myself a few times included, I won't lie). They like a guy, who is obviously treating them poorly, but yet they continue to give everything they have to him. They know that he is probably just using them as a ploy, for sex, for whatever. Yet, they continue to do whatever they can to please him. And then complain about the situation they have gotten themselves into, saying they don't know how they got there and that they don't know what to do. Yes, I have been there. Yes, I did my fair share of complaining. However, I look back on these situations now, and just ask myself: why was I so stupid? And why couldn't I have just accepted that I made a poor decision in something and must now live with the consquences?
Maybe it is just part of who we are, and it's just something we grow out of. Maybe, we don't grow out of it. Maybe, we just grow more conscious of the fact that we are making a mistake, and we still have to live with the consequences, but we just need something to complain about it. Maybe this question just doesn't have an answer.
Who knows.
Why do we have to complain about the situations that we get ourselves into when we conciously make a poor decision?
Why can't we live with the fact that we just made a poor decision and got ourselves into a sticky situation, get out of it as best as we can, and forget about it?
This is something I can't understand. I understand the fact that we are all going to make poor decisions and make mistakes in our lifetimes. However, what I don't fully comprehend are those who constantly make poor decisions, despite advice from others after they ask for it repeatedly, but then constantly complain that they are in a sticky or a foul situation. You made a conscious decision, one that you knew at the time probably was not the right move. Everyone does it. It's part of our nature. There are definitely just times where we have to test our boundaries, our limits, what is right and what is wrong in our own minds. However, we should also be able to render the consequences that come along with the decisions that we make.
So I guess my question is this: why make a conciously bad decision/poor choice when you know ahead of time what the consequence will be?
For example: This is something I have seen happen a lot with girls (myself a few times included, I won't lie). They like a guy, who is obviously treating them poorly, but yet they continue to give everything they have to him. They know that he is probably just using them as a ploy, for sex, for whatever. Yet, they continue to do whatever they can to please him. And then complain about the situation they have gotten themselves into, saying they don't know how they got there and that they don't know what to do. Yes, I have been there. Yes, I did my fair share of complaining. However, I look back on these situations now, and just ask myself: why was I so stupid? And why couldn't I have just accepted that I made a poor decision in something and must now live with the consquences?
Maybe it is just part of who we are, and it's just something we grow out of. Maybe, we don't grow out of it. Maybe, we just grow more conscious of the fact that we are making a mistake, and we still have to live with the consequences, but we just need something to complain about it. Maybe this question just doesn't have an answer.
Who knows.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Christmas, New Years, and the Countdown to B-day
Merry belated Christmas to everyone! I hope you all had a very happy and fun holiday! Things were hectic for me. I traveled back to eastern PA to visit my parents and other family for a week for Christmas. What an extremely long week that was! Between shopping, seeing family/friends, the baby shower, Christmas...I was pooped! But, it was a good trip all in all.
Madison got a ridiculous amount of clothes (among other awesome things) at the baby shower. Hopefully she will be able to wear all of them! Her nursery is coming along splendidly, I just wish we could do more with it. However, renting an apartment makes it difficult. But, I am going to do with it what I can and make the best of it.
New Years should be fairly quiet this year, as with most years for me. But, this year is special because I finally get to spend New Years with my amazing fiancee. We were dating last year for New Years, but we were still doing the long distance thing so we weren't able to celebrate together. I am very excited to be with him this year. And he has off of work! Yay!
And yes, it is getting closer and closer to what I am going to call B-day (I'm sure I am not the only person in the world to come up with that. I just think it sounds a lot more appropriate than D-day!). Only 5 more weeks until the big day arrives. With any luck, we will actually be able to schedule a date for the induction at the Dr's appointment this Thursday. Speaking of doctors appointments, they are now twice a week from here on out. And I thought I was going to the doctor's a lot before! Twice a week we are now going in for fetal monitoring, just to make sure that she is moving around like she should and that her heart rate increases when she moves. I'm sure we won't have any problems with this. There are days where I don't think she ever stops moving! We are also having sonograms at least once a week from here on out as well. Which is fine with me, I don't mind seeing her once a week and coming home with a picture (when she isn't being stubborn and we can see her face!). This works out well for the fiancee too, because then he gets to see her and hear her heartbeat, which he absolutely loves. I don't think he's really gotten to feel her move, just because of the pure fact that she is so stubborn. She is definitely her parents daughter, that's for sure!
Madison got a ridiculous amount of clothes (among other awesome things) at the baby shower. Hopefully she will be able to wear all of them! Her nursery is coming along splendidly, I just wish we could do more with it. However, renting an apartment makes it difficult. But, I am going to do with it what I can and make the best of it.
New Years should be fairly quiet this year, as with most years for me. But, this year is special because I finally get to spend New Years with my amazing fiancee. We were dating last year for New Years, but we were still doing the long distance thing so we weren't able to celebrate together. I am very excited to be with him this year. And he has off of work! Yay!
And yes, it is getting closer and closer to what I am going to call B-day (I'm sure I am not the only person in the world to come up with that. I just think it sounds a lot more appropriate than D-day!). Only 5 more weeks until the big day arrives. With any luck, we will actually be able to schedule a date for the induction at the Dr's appointment this Thursday. Speaking of doctors appointments, they are now twice a week from here on out. And I thought I was going to the doctor's a lot before! Twice a week we are now going in for fetal monitoring, just to make sure that she is moving around like she should and that her heart rate increases when she moves. I'm sure we won't have any problems with this. There are days where I don't think she ever stops moving! We are also having sonograms at least once a week from here on out as well. Which is fine with me, I don't mind seeing her once a week and coming home with a picture (when she isn't being stubborn and we can see her face!). This works out well for the fiancee too, because then he gets to see her and hear her heartbeat, which he absolutely loves. I don't think he's really gotten to feel her move, just because of the pure fact that she is so stubborn. She is definitely her parents daughter, that's for sure!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Growing babies, School, and Christmas Right Around the Corner
Things haven't been too interesting around here lately. Not too much to blog about, which is why I haven't updated.
Madison is doing well, we got to see her again last week :) She was around 2lbs. 6oz. She's gettin' big! However, it turns out that as well as she is doing, I have gestational diabetes and low platlet counts. Both of which would account for why I have been so exhausted these past couple of months, as well as all my little "episodes" that I have been experiencing after breakfast. Just need to eat better is all!!
Classes are finally done for the semester, and I have never been so happy to be done with a semester in my life. I cannot wait to be done with this school. I've come to really dislike being at this school, and constantly finding myself wanting to transfer and wishing that I had never gone here to begin with. I really wish I could transfer, but with only one semester left (hopefully...if they don't manage to screw me over) for undergraduate, that would be a really stupid thing to do. Especially since this is a private college and I'm sure the majority of my credits wouldn't transfer over. I will definitely not be going here for graduate school though. This school has honestly just been a complete waste of my time, and I honestly feel that I could have done a million times better a different school. Phew, guess I needed to rant!!
It's also really hard to believe that Christmas is only 2 weeks away. Where did the time go?! I feel like it was just Thanksgiving!! Christmas being only 2 weeks away, also means that my one year anniversary with my fiance is only two weeks away as well (pretty easy anniversary to remember if you ask me!!). And what an amazing year it has been. I'm so happy to have him!
Like I said, not much to update with right now but I figured I should post something since I haven't posted anything in a little while!!
Madison is doing well, we got to see her again last week :) She was around 2lbs. 6oz. She's gettin' big! However, it turns out that as well as she is doing, I have gestational diabetes and low platlet counts. Both of which would account for why I have been so exhausted these past couple of months, as well as all my little "episodes" that I have been experiencing after breakfast. Just need to eat better is all!!
Classes are finally done for the semester, and I have never been so happy to be done with a semester in my life. I cannot wait to be done with this school. I've come to really dislike being at this school, and constantly finding myself wanting to transfer and wishing that I had never gone here to begin with. I really wish I could transfer, but with only one semester left (hopefully...if they don't manage to screw me over) for undergraduate, that would be a really stupid thing to do. Especially since this is a private college and I'm sure the majority of my credits wouldn't transfer over. I will definitely not be going here for graduate school though. This school has honestly just been a complete waste of my time, and I honestly feel that I could have done a million times better a different school. Phew, guess I needed to rant!!
It's also really hard to believe that Christmas is only 2 weeks away. Where did the time go?! I feel like it was just Thanksgiving!! Christmas being only 2 weeks away, also means that my one year anniversary with my fiance is only two weeks away as well (pretty easy anniversary to remember if you ask me!!). And what an amazing year it has been. I'm so happy to have him!
Like I said, not much to update with right now but I figured I should post something since I haven't posted anything in a little while!!
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